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"Sexual
Preferences"
My mother is a total homophobe. Every time I would bring up the name "gay"
or "lesbian", she would start yelling and tell me that those words were bad words. She would tell me that those people are sick in the
head; that they're mental. She'd say they are not normal. She would describe "them" as if they were some sort of nasty
insect.
Even though I completely disagree with her opinions, I've learned to never again speak
"those words" to her.
I never speak to my mother or any other person about sexual preferences
because I'm always thinking that they all disagree with homos and will attack me
by asking if I am a homosexual. The truth is, I am a homo, I am bisexual. I know that I am bisexual. The only thing confusing me, is if I am lesbian.
Ever since an "incident" happened to me when I was younger, I always viewed men as complete assholes. I know that's wrong of
me, but I cannot help it. I always think of men as wanting sex and nothing but
it and that they don't really care about girls. I think they cheat
on, lie to, hurt girls (physically and
mentally), etc. I'm sure that there are some "good" men out there who won't ever hurt
girls, but I just don't think I can ever be completely happy with a man. I know I'd always be worrying that I'd do something wrong to trigger the man to hurt
me or something.
I find myself happier with a woman. I know that I am being totally
sexist, but
that's how I feel. I find myself happier with a woman than a man. I guess it's because of my past that makes me want to be with a woman
more than anything else.
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